Monthly Archives: June 2010

>As I Wait For You…

>Under the scorching sun,
As I wait for you,
With a broken heart,
That still beats for you.

I look into the crowd,
For a known face.
And in the mirror,
To see my own disgrace.

And all I find wherever I go,
Is just you and your memories lost.
Every moment, every memory,
That’s all that’s left in me.

Tears have dried,
The laugh has faded.
In a monotone of black,
Life has evaded.

Never had I thought,
I would be so involved.
Never had I believed,
That even I could grieve.

And losing you has brought,
Nothing to me.
Pleasure in pain,
Is all that remains.

With you,
Without you,
I remember how it feels,
To be around you.

And still your face,
Captured in my closed eyes.
Every night,
That’s just alone to be.

In the wake of every dawn,
I hope to see you.
At the break of every day,
I close my eyes to feel you.

Seasons change,
From autumn to rain.
But colours in my life,
Still remain the same.

Rain swept the colours of life,
In a jiffy, that we painted in smiles.
And there’s no horizon or rainbow,
Neither a bed to cater to the wounded me.

Am tired of disguise,
Tired of this game.
Where all I have to do,
Is be in the frame.

I want to shout and fumble,
Be myself.
But even that I can’t,
Because I was myself with just you.

I still don’t repent,
Nor do I torment.
I won’t cry if this is how,
Destiny is ought to be.

Pain seems unending,
Life seems a standstill.
And the distance seems killing,
As I Wait For You…

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This is my second attempt at poetry… Just something I wrote… Just something I felt…


>Emotions…

>Everyday… Every hour… Every minute… Every second… We feel a long string of emotions. Like, a small incident, a little change, and the emotions we feel, turn out to be completely different from the ones a few moments back… They change by a major!

Sometimes I love to think… Was life simpler when we were younger? Like the pre-teens and when double digit ages had just begun? And, yes… Life was easier… The reason I can cite is simple. The emotions we feel, the reasons that change and affect our emotions were few. There were just two simple words to describe emotions… Happiness or sadness.

Simply said… Simply understood, even…

And today? Life changed within these almost four years after getting into the teens… May be even this is a process of growing up. And if it’s so, those elder to me, must be facing even more a deal managing their emotions!

The simple happiness, the expressions of joy, just got so many names and expressions… Happiness, joy, gay, grin, smile, laughter, wink, curved-up smile, excitement… Sadness has changed to just being plain sad, pained, hurt, glum, tired, broken, troubled, tormented… And then there are those emotions which fall in neither and are very new to us… Indifferent, guilt, anger, pale face, straight face, confusion… And the list is endless…

Just so many different emotions and feelings!

And the reason we can feel so many things together, is surely our maturity. I still remember the time in my fourth and fifth grades… When I used to sit quietly when I was sad and was never able to figure out what was the reason for that mood… At least today I know what is the reason… Why I feel what I feel…

Most of the emotions are strange… Peculiar… Sometimes, even felt for the first time… But, we soon find a word to describe it perfectly (courtesy: the wide vocabulary of English language, my preferred medium)…

Again… Mood changes… Swings by… And mood-swings during teenage are a common affair according to my knowledge, my experience.

Things don’t seem as easy as they are… Life seems difficult… Emotions seem unmanageable… In the end, all of it is taken care of by time…

Keeping a tab of these is the most tiring of it all. There are those friends of ours who help us when we need them, and just are with us otherwise, to share our happiness… These actually are those who ‘feel’ our emotions…

They say emotions travel in vibrations… According to what I have found, it’s true… If you are really close to a person, you would know when the person is sad… Unhappy… In need… In pain… And even when the person is happy…

Miracle? Magic? Co-incidence? Guess? Fluke? I don’t know… I believe it’s all just… Emotions…

Ciao!